Two days ago, I had a great chat with my RMT (registered massage therapist) and he pointed out that when I was speaking about my weight loss it usually was negatively. I often say things like, “Oh I’m so thin now” or “all my muscles are gone”. When I think about my past blogs, a lot of it has been focused around weight.
So that got me thinking….
When I wake up in the morning, I feel pretty awesome. Refreshed. Awake. Ready to take on the day! Then I start my morning routine and that usually involves stepping on the scale. If the numbers have increased, I continue to feel great, but if the numbers have decreased, it can be discouraging. How can I have lost weight when I ate all day? But what if I didn’t step on the scale and just kept on with my day? No discouragement. Still feel refreshed. Still ready to take on the day.
I tell my patients that age is just a number, it’s all about how you feel. There are 90 year olds who feel fantastic and there are 5 year olds who are very sick. Although monitoring my weight loss is important, I should focus more on how I’m feeling and not the number itself. I often hear, “Oh wow you look great!”. I reply, “I feel really great as well”. Then I look in the mirror and I can see and feel more of my skeleton than before. When I am lying in bed, I can no longer sleep with my knees touching because I can feel the bones butting against each other. I can’t help but compare my new body to my old body. I don’t “look” great in my mind.
But comparing really gets me no where! My stomach is gone. I am a different person than I was four months ago. I won’t have my stomach back so I should really stop comparing. I should focus on the positive things about the weight loss. If people are saying I look great, I obviously look great and should start believing them.
I have decided that I will continue to eat as many calories in a day and if I lose a pound. Don’t get discouraged. I am still recovering. As long as I am feeling great and I am continuing to eat as I should, things will all work themselves out in the long run. Even though I may not feel like I look great some days, I will keep saying it to myself and I will come around and believe it 100%.
Not dwelling on my weight so much over the past day has already made me feel a lot better about myself and my body image. When I stepped on the scale today and it read 105.6lbs, I didn’t tell myself, “Oh you must stay above 105lbs”. I told myself, “that’s okay, still lookin’ good, today is another great day”.